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Showing posts with label Out of the Texas Mist by Cindy Lou Ruffino. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Out of the Texas Mist by Cindy Lou Ruffino. Show all posts

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Time to Re-Evaluate

Sometimes we have to step back and evaluate where we have come from and where we are going. I guess it depends on how you look at the circumstances of life. Some believe that we are destined to do and be who we are. Some feel that we make our own destiny.
I guess I had felt that we do as we are destined to do. Then I read “The Secret” and began to just live. I learned you must ASK for what you want in your life. Then you must BELIEVE that it is already yours. Then you must be open to RECIEVE. By doing this I have traveled a long way and in the past two years experienced things I would not have experienced if I would have just sat there and waited for life to find me.
Some days I feel that I have fallen back into that old way of thinking. I go to Wally world and do my thing. I come home, do my school work, then go to bed. I feel like I am not living my life anymore. I am so busy trying to promote “Out of the Texas Mist” and “Dead Xs in Texas” that I haven’t even done anything on “The Missing Texas Star”. My college work and my time at Wally world have completely taken over my time.
The 2 year anniversary of my flight from everyone and everything I knew will be on Mother’s Day. I guess I need to start branching out. I will have my first degree in November. I will be leaving Wal-Mart soon and be on to much better and exciting things. I have asked… I truly believe… now I am ready to receive.
Look out world…here comes Cindy Lou!

Monday, April 19, 2010

And Here We Go Again

After attending the Hill Country Book Fair this past weekend I realized that I had stopped doing my blog and I had also stopped working on my third book altogether. I do not know if it was because of working and taking college courses or the fact that Marine that seemed to take over my life had my attention. Several of the other authors advised me to blog everyday and keep my writing in the forefront. I also learned that you must network.
Today I started working on my Press kit. I find it tough to write about yourself. What part do you include and what part do you keep a mystery? I am an open person but I do have those little secrets that I like to keep to myself. The one thing that I have learned is life is an adventure. Each and everyday you learn something new not only about yourself but also about the world.
Since I have written and published "Out of the Texas Mist" and "Dead Xs in Texas" I have learned everyone makes mistakes. I guess the measure of a person is how they handle those mistakes. Some try to place the blame on others and then those that actually learn from the mistakes own up to them and make an effort to not make the mistake again. I have tried to learn from my mistakes and those that others make.
I also have learned that the more people you talk with that have chosen the same path you have you gain experience.
Several of the authors I spoke with had several self published books on their table. I rather submit my work through a publisher but have respect and admiration for those that choose to be their own publisher. They are truly gamblers. I have talked to Ben Rehder a well known author that told me to steer away from the self publishing world. His advise was for me to find a publicist. My take on the conversation was for me to learn how to be my own publicist. By doing that I have had several book signings in the past two months. Kinky Friedman suggested I become my own publisher so I could be the one that makes the money. He did advise me from the beginning that you do not make money selling books. I guess when you are an author you have to be able to be aggressive with the attention getting. The more attention you get the more books you sell. Maybe I should throw a few public temper tantrums to get my name in the paper. Once I do that then I will be known as that nutsy local author. Once people know that I exist then they will wonder what I wrote. Once they read that first crazy tale then they are hooked and have to read the second. I already know this is how it works by all those that know me and have read the two books and drive me crazy asking about the third.
Starting today I will make it a habit to write at least a page or two to that third part of the tale. I will pester bookstores and book festivals to be included and submit my work everywhere I can. Look out world here comes Cindy Lou.... and here we go again.

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Remember to Remember

Life takes us down different paths some rocky some narrow. I guess I spent most of my life looking out at the world from what seemed to be a dungeon. Those of you know that in the past two years I have made a few drastic changes in my life. Well I guess you can say that I have actually have a life now. After waking up disgusted with the way my life had turned out I started working my way out of the rut I felt I was in. The first thing I did was get my truck running so I could get a job. I wasn't picky I just took the first job I could get which was working in the Kroger Deli. I stayed there while I wrote my first book Out of the Texas Mist. Once that was in the works to get published I ended up moving over two hundred miles from everyone and everything I knew.
There was two people that gave me a roof over my head until I was able to get out on my own. I will always thank Don and Sharon for that. I was able to rent a little trailer from them until I met this guy who seemed to stir up all kinds of emotions in me. I have been gone from my family for more than a year and I do miss them dearly. I know I sit here silently and ponder where I am headed next and there are times I am so tired from work all I want to do is curl up in a ball and cry.
Yesterday John brought up the fact that I am not the same person he met a little more than six months ago. He said that I had become quiet and sullen. He said that he missed the Cindy that he had met and grown so fond of.
I didn't realize that I had fallen back into those deep dark caverns that I had struggled so hard to climb out of. Heck I still have some of the scars from the fight for freedom. I have problems trusting men and I refuse to believe that I am worthy of any ones love other than Mater and Bridget. I lay in bed last night listening to the night sounds and I realized that I had failed to change the channel when negative thoughts took me over. I had allowed others negativity to rub off on me. I had allowed the circus that most people know as Wal-Mart to suck me under into the dark abyss. This morning as I rode silently to work I made an oath to myself. I promised that I would REMEMBER TO REMEMBER. I had came a long way and I was not going to let a few set backs put an end to my journey. I still do not know where exactly I belong but I do know that a great family has taken me in and made me one of theirs. Jim and Lydia are angels in their own right. I have a place to lay my head and food to nourish my body. John has became a great friend and confidant. I could not think of anyone else I would like to go fishing with. Mater and Bridget are happy here on the ranch and we all feel safe. I need to remember to be grateful with each step I take. I need to be appreciative of all that I have. I need to count my blessings and thank those that I see everyday that add to my life. I have great friends and a great family both here and back in Spring. I will not let those little bumps in the road knock me off course. Back to being positive. Thank you John for bringing the back sliding to my attention. Sometimes it takes a little tough love. Now that I know I was coasting I think it is time I take control of my life once again. I will start by calling my publisher tomorrow to see what the hold up is on Dead X's in Texas. They sent out an email stating the books are on sale for a huge discount. I can start by telling everyone I know to go to http://publishamerica.com and type in my name at the search box to order a copy while it is cheap. Heck it is over a $20 savings from the list price. I will get my butt in gear and really push both books. If I am going to ever escape Wally World I have to be persistent and positive.
Tally Ho

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Salute

I have to admit that I enjoy my job most of the time. I have a few favorite customers that I see on a regular basis and one of those we have dubbed the cookie monster because he jokes with us about hiding the free samples when we know he is in the store. Last week I had a cake order to do for the Marines 233rd Birthday. Since I love a man in uniform and respect people that belong to the military I put a little extra love into decorating the cake. On my day off I went into the store to buy some food and after a little ribbing by a few fellow associates about not being able to stay away on my day off Nickey called me over to the counter. She informed me that the Cookie Monster came in and he wanted to know who did the cake for the Marines. I replied " What did I do wrong?"
"Cindy they loved it!" she exclaimed.
Friday when I returned to work Nickey said to go to the Customer Service Desk. "I just got here how can I be in trouble already?" I mumbled.
"It's good I promise" she replied as I removed my apron and walked out the swinging door.
The CSM handed me a file folder and said congratulations. When I opened the folder I found a certificate proclaiming me an Honorary Marine. I thought this is so cool so when I got off work I immediately bought a document frame for the certificate then hung it proudly on my wall. Monday while I was working by myself Cookie Monster walked up. I thanked him for the certificate and we had a nice chat. We stood there sharing pictures of our art on our phones and I told him about Out of the Texas Mist then handed him my card. He promised he was going to Serendipity Books to order a copy and wanted me to sign it. I was so happy that I had met someone else from the Houston Area that now calls the Hill Country home and possibly gained another reader.Before he left he exclaimed "Remember once a Marine always a Marine" I'm happy to be a Honorary Marine because I didn't have to do it the hard way and endure all those push ups.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Am I in Love?

As I was sitting in the break room Sunday evening Alva from the Jewelry Department came in then hugged me real tight. I looked up then smiled at the sweet woman that had been reading Out of the Texas Mist.
“Cindy you have to tell me does Kinky know that you are in love with him? Has he read your book?”
Shocked at the question I replied “Well Alva I sent a copy before it was published and I gave him one that I had signed for him. He did say he read parts of it and he liked it so I hope he read the rest of it.”
“Does he know how you feel about him?” she demanded as she sat down across from me.
“Alva I don’t know how I feel so if he knows then maybe he should tell me” I joked trying to figure out why she was so excited that I was attracted to Kinky Friedman.
“What about that good looking Deputy Ben where did you meet him?” She inquired as she leaned across the table to whisper her question.
“Alva you do know the book is fiction and Ben is just a figment of my imagination right?”
“Yes I know it is fiction but I do know you have a thing for Kinky.” she admitted. Well that just blew my cover I guess it was obvious the Jewish Cowboy had caught my attention. After I sat there and explained that I had never been alone with Kinky and the most attention I had gotten were a few hugs she was still gun ho about the two of us hooking up. I then explained that Kinky was a playboy of sorts and had all types of women stashed here and there.
“Come on Cindy everyone knows you are taken” she offered as she stood up then left. Shocked I looked around the break room and realized several people were staring at me. Okay maybe I blew the discrete part of my little crush when I wrote the dedication to Kinky at the beginning of the book. I figured if Kinky didn’t know that I was attracted to him then maybe he needed a check up from the neck up. The funny thing about crushes is are they just an attraction or is there some real feelings there.
As more and more people read Out of the Texas Mist then approach me to ask if Kinky knows I am starting to wonder if maybe I need to get face to face with the Kinkster and see what he thinks.
I must admit I have a deep respect for the man and he is one great looking cowboy but am I really in love with him? Maybe that is why I haven’t met anyone.
I have been having so much fun writing these little fictional stories I have fallen in love fictionally and haven’t even noticed. So the big question is ....Am I in love with Kinky?

Friday, October 17, 2008

Grapes and Cheese please

Last night my friend Sharon and I went to the Arts Gala at the Marble Falls Library. They were celebrating local artist and authors. I did learn that my book “Out of the Texas Mist” didn’t stay on the shelf. I found out that as soon as someone brought it back it was checked out again. Wow I am so happy that others are enjoying my book as much as I enjoyed writing it. Sharon and I enjoyed looking at the paintings and discussing what we felt with each one then we realized that the gala was mostly older people sitting around listening to music and eating grapes and cheeses while drinking wine. We stayed an hour then headed off to the local drug store chain to buy vitamins. I ended staying up late into the evening editing “Case of the Dead Husband” getting it ready for the publisher in December. I still haven’t purchased a computer so I will have to wait to finish typing what I wrote in that purple spiral which included the ending of the book.
On another note I gave Linda B. the store operator a copy of “Out of the Texas Mist “for her birthday. She read it in two days which she said was a record for her because she could not put it down. I laughed as she raved out loud to everyone in the break room about how much she loved my book. Sherri one of the sweepers heard her then went to the local book store to order the book. Now the Manager of the book store wants to work with me on a book signing. See how one good deed leads to great things happening.

Well needless to say I still haven’t connected with Kinky and he said for me to call him today so we could discuss “Case of the Missing Texas Star, Who took my Kinky?” It is tough when he is so busy but I’m patient and I know we will get our little chat. It will be a tough weekend for me because I will be working alone which means I will have to make all those cake orders all by myself. I did get some great news from my kids. It seems that the soon to be ex husband has moved his new girlfriend in and they plan on getting married when the divorce is final. Well good for him I am glad to see that he is moving forward with his life allowing me to move forward with mine. Look out world here I come.

Friday, July 18, 2008

On Living Alone

Now that I am finally moved into my own place I truly feel independent. To me this is a big accomplishment. I know that I have been an independent person for a long time and had been sole provider for my family for a few years. I was the person that made sure we had a roof over our heads and food in the kids stomachs but for some reason it did not make me feel complete because Tom was always there telling me I was useless. I cannot tell you how good it feels to look around and realize that you are doing it on your own. It is like the first time you realize that you are riding your bike solo and no one is holding on to the seat to make sure you don't fall. Life is meant to be lived to its fullest and I am going to make sure that I live mine. Mater is a little lonely for the Poms that we lived with but hopefully when we go to the Utopia Animal Rescue Ranch next week I will bring him home a brother or sister to keep him company while I am at work or busy cleaning house. I have a lot of unpacking to do and I wonder where I will put my collectibles and craft stuff but I will figure it out the same way I will figure out what to do about not having appliances. As long as I have the mini refrigerator to keep my milk and yogurt in and a microwave to cook soup in I am okay. Last night I chatted on the phone with my old neighbor and friend Alice Branton. She was happy to hear my voice and told me she had called the 1-800-wal-mart number to request they carry Out of the Texas Mist but ended up getting someones voice mail. She said she left a message and was planning on calling again today. You see it is people like her that keep me chugging through life. The people that love and support you because you are their friend. I have been there for her on a number of occasions and now she is there for me. All she ask is I make her a character in my next book. I laughed and said no problem I will need a sidekick to help me find Kinky. Oops I don't want to give away any story details but Kinky will be missing in the third book. Since Case of the Dead Husband is nearly through I have ended up coming up with the third book Case of the Missing Texas Star Who took my Kinky?
I am hoping that the Kinkster will help me on the third book unless he wants to put his two cents into Case of the Dead Husband I guess I can ask him this next week when I go to the Ranch to deliver his copy of Out of the Texas Mist I planned on taking Cousin Nancy a copy too because she has been such a great friend mentioning my book and myself in her blog and encouraging me every time we talk. She said she was excited that I was coming up to find a brother or sister for Mater. I am excited to see her and Tony again and of course I am excited to see Kinky again. I don't think he knows what an influence he has been on me. He is that big bright star in the field of blue on the state flag. Okay he would probably say "don't put me up on a pedestal." My reply would be "but you look so damn good up there on that pedestal." LOL
I just want to thank the Universe for pushing me in the right direction and bringing the right people in my life to make sure that I have the right influence I need to go as far as I can and accomplish all I need to accomplish in this lifetime. I am so grateful.
Now it is time to head off to work and enjoy another day of smearing icing on cakes and hoping they look pretty enough to satisfy the customers. Then I will come home to a sweet little dog that is happy to see me and chew on my arm because I left him alone in an empty house to have to play alone and snooze all day. I will continue to unpack and clean until I feel it is done. If there are boxes left then oh well they will stay packed.

Monday, July 14, 2008

I NEED YOUR HELP!!!

I have been trying to get Wal-Mart to carry my new book Out of the Texas Mist so I can do a book signing at the store I work at. Well I have hit a wall with the Regional Manager. The Vendor that is in charge of buying the books can not do so with out Regional permission. Since the book features Kinky Friedman the Vendor wants to carry the book because it feels that it will be a good seller not just Regionally but possibly State Wide if not throughout the country. They have asked me to get the word out and ask everyone I know to call 1-800-wal-mart or 1800-925-6278 and request that Wal-Mart carry the book. I was told the squeaky wheel gets the grease so lets all ask our family, our friends, our neighbors, our co-workers,associates and any one else that will to call the hot line at Wal-Mart and request the book be carried by the store. I would appreciate all the help I can get. I don't care if you are calling from Timbuck Two there is a Wal-Mart near by so it doesn't matter where the friends or family lives. I know with the book in such a large chain more people will get the chance to read my crazy tale. I think that is what it is all about not so much selling the book but knowing that my little story is being enjoyed by people everywhere. Okay people they think I can't do it so lets show them it can be done. I want that book signing at my store because I have lots of excited associates just waiting to buy the book at work. Here are the particulars you need to know to request the book.
Title: Out of the Texas Mist
Author: Cindy Lou Ruffino
Publisher: Publish America
ISBN: 1-60563-916-8

Thank you for your support
Cindy Lou Ruffino

Monday, June 30, 2008

Gotta Go Big

After talking to the Book Buyer for Wal-Mart I learned Out of the Texas Mist must be bought Regionally. This is fine by me because the region starts at San Antonio and ends in Waco and Austin. That is a lot of Wal-Marts. I guess what I need is to have friends to call or go by their local Wal-Mart and request that they stock Out of the Texas Mist so the fact that it is wanted will get back to corporate and they will allow the buyer to purchase the books for the store. My manager Darrel was given numbers to the Regional buyer so he could request they stock the book so I can do a book signing. My fellow co-workers have been clamoring to have the book carried in the store so they can buy it at a cheaper price than what is offered online. I agree if Wal-Mart decides to carry Out of the Texas Mist the price will be at a discount thus giving more people the chance to read my little tale. Your help is needed so lets call our local Wal-Marts and request Out of the Texas Mist by Cindy Lou Ruffino be carried so more people can afford to buy.